FORGIVE?

the shooter,
Orlando,
shall not be named,
the nameless shooter,
not with Allah,
too bad, nameless shooter,
thought you’d be with Allah,
but you’re not,
you’re in hell,
murderers go to hell,
Allah doesn’t condone murder,
I guess the shooter didn’t know that.

God tells me to forgive,
don’t want to,
can’t,
won’t,
need to be angry first,
then grieve,
cry,
shooter’s in hell,
good,
my brothers and sisters,
gone now,
but I’ll see them in heaven

the shooter murdered them,
cold blooded,
happy people,
lovers,
friends,
brothers and sisters,
gone now,
I’m angry,
won’t forgive,
never,
does Allah forgive?
probably not.

No, can’t forgive yet,
wish I could,
Jesus tells me I should,
it’s for my healing,
the grief,
the pain,
the anger,
it’s for my healing,
but Lord,
what about the shooter?
“Trust me, son,
vengeance is mine.”

Thank you Lord, maybe tomorrow I’ll forgive.