1 Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me.
Psalms 51: 1-3 The Voice The Voice Bible Copyright © 2012 Thomas Nelson, Inc. The Voice™ translation © 2012 Ecclesia Bible Society All rights reserved.
These verses were sometimes referred to as the “Hangman’s Prayer.” A sentenced convict was given an opportunity to set things right with the One he/she called Almighty before the noose tightened. Grace and mercy reigned when that Power was called upon.
In addiction we also receive the sentence of death for our walk into hell. It is a spiritual death often more onerous than the finality of a hangman’s noose. Surely, I often prayed for a physical end to my suffering for I could not fathom a life other than that of an alcoholic. Others were able to drink socially or totally abstain, but not me. My demons would not allow it and my God, yes I did believe, would never forgive me.
I am a miracle who walks aside millions of others like me who finally faced the toughest decision of our lives. Admitted, believed, and made a decision to turn it over. That “God of my understanding” listened to my confessions, forgave every one of my transgressions, and then transformed a wretched human into something useful, clean and serene.
God, make a fresh start in me,
shape a Genesis week from the chaos of my life. Don’t throw me out with the trash, or fail to breathe holiness in me. Bring me back from gray exile,
put a fresh wind in my sails!